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eSadists, Kevorkians, Ghosts, and the Company of Misery

Over the course of the last two years, I have run across a curious breed of people who seem to get off on the pain and suffering of others. In general, they're called "sadists". That's not really something new, but these people I'm talking about inhabit Internet discussion groups, often obtaining a measure of control by becoming "moderators", or cozying up to the moderators.  They maintain a facade of compassion and seem very knowledgeable about the disease. I call these people "eSaists". They seem to feed off the fear, despair and desperation of people watching helplessly as their loved-ones slowly slip away. They are like some creature from an old episode of Star Trek or the "horla" of 19th century French literature.

An eSadist enjoys the suffering of others, and often infests discussion groups where hopelessly incurable diseases are discussed. They talk incessantly about things like hospice, durable powers of attorney, and brain donations. They taunt desperate people with "possible cures" and new developments that are years and years away. "They're working on it now, but it won't be available to help your loved one."

The real test is when a possible treatment is brought up that those interested could start pursuing TODAY. The eSadist will balk at the idea. They will openly attack not only the idea, but the person who dares to introduce the subject. If they have the power to squelch the idea and the person, they will use it. Another key characteristic of an eSadist is that since a possible treatment available immediately might rob them of sad and desperate souls to taunt and feed off of, they will never pass along their knowledge of a ray of hope for an effective treatment. They will keep it to themselves, and only dispense their knowledge when their credibility and motives are challenged.

Kevorkians behave in a similar manner, but they have given up.  To them, death is the only answer.  They are tired, and want to be free from the burden of caring and worrying about their loved one.  They don't want there to be an effective therapy.  They don't want to preserve a life that they have judged to be not worth living any longer.  Their excuse is that that don't want their loved one to suffer any longer.  But the real reason is selfishness, and that they can not admit.

Those in the Company of Misery are like ghosts haunting an old wishing well.  They have already lost a loved one to some incurable disease.  Like the Kevorkians and the eSadists, they really don't want to see any drug, supplement or therapy work, especially if such could have been available to help their departed loved one, if only they had known in time. They just can't move on with their lives.  They want others to join in.  Misery loves company.

It is wise to identify personalty types like these, and avoid them.

Your body is a machine.  It drags you, the soul, along whether you want to go or not, first to life, then to death.

Ecclesiastes 8:8 "No man has power to retain the spirit, or authority over the day of death..."

You do not have have an internal on/off switch that you can switch off at will.  The idea that you do is a New Agey style concept that subtly attempts to dismiss Christ's supernatural act of giving up his spirit as his final miracle performed in his human body, ending the torment of his crucifixion.  It was a supernatural act, get it?  We do not have that ability.  All we can do is inflict violence on ourselves to kill the machine.  That is suicide.  Our bodies do not tidy things up like a shopkeeper at the end of the day to shut down in an organized manner.  Our bodies want to keep going no matter what our minds may want to do, and they fight to survive.  But, they do at some point lose the battle.  There is a common sequence of events to this defeat that many incorrectly describe as "their body shutting down".  That phrase implies that the person's mind or body wills it.  But the mind can't will it, and the body has no will of its own.  Again, it is a machine.  At any point in the failure sequence, if the cause of the failure is identified and corrected, the body rebounds, and continues on. Physicians say this when in fact, they just don't know what else to do.  They lack the skills, knowlege, medicine or equipment.  Saying "their body is shutting down" is a way of shifting the blame for their inadequacies from themselves to the patient.  If the patient or their body or both have decided to "give up the ghost", then, well heck, the physicians are not to blame, and can justify not trying anything else.

I'm trying to figure out what is driving force behind hospice.  I mean, it sounds like a kind an compasionate thing to do, to help suffering and dying people in their final days by giving them palative care and pain-killing drugs.  Most people rave about how much help they are.  But if you look deeper, you find problems.  First is, who pays for it and why?  It's not cheap to hire all of these people and someone has to pay.  Obviously, there is a limit since if you don't expire quick enough, hospice disappears.  Hmmm.  So, are insurance companies behind hospice to save money by keeping people out of hospitals and from seeking extraordinary medications?  Is it Medicare?

Is there something more nefarious going on?

When the noted French atheist Voltaire expired, it is said that he was screaming as he saw the gates of Hell opening up for him:

History tells the story of the renowned atheist, Voltaire, one of the most aggressive antagonists of Christianity. He wrote many things to undermine the church, and once said of Jesus Christ, "Curse the wretch. In 20 years, Christianity will be no more. My single hand will destroy the edifice it took 12 apostles to rear."

Needless to say, Voltaire was less than successful. And on his deathbed, a nurse who attended him was reported to have said, "For all the wealth in Europe, I would not see another atheist die."

The physician, waiting up with Voltaire at his death, said that he cried out with utter desperation, "I am abandoned by God and man. I will give you half of what I am worth if you will give me six months of life. Then I shall go to hell and you will go with me, oh, Christ, oh, Jesus Christ!"

Rather inconvenient for those who, like Voltaire seek to "
destroy the edifice it took 12 apostles to rear".  What better way of preventing people from witnessing the final moments of a non-believer's agony than to drug them up with morphine, or what have you?  So, is the purpose of hospice to prevent the Voltaire effect and therefore thwart the inadvertent conversion of any who happen to be in the vicinity?

If the purpose of hospice is to prevent suffering, I'm all for it.  But it just doesn't seem that all those providing the services are doing so out of the goodness of their hearts.

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